sweetheart i cant belive its a year today since you left me and the kids and mary in this cruel world everyday i think about you and miss you there are days i cry when i think about you and to day is one of those days bernie i was telling gerard jr about your birthday 2 weeks ago and god love him he said he want to go up to heaven and go to your birthday and i told him he could not because you where with holygod and when i was talking to him there where tears in my eyes since you died there has been a big void in mine and the kids and marys life and it will never be replaced until we meet again until that time look after us love from your husband gerard gerard jr jade wall and mary xxxxx you dont know how hard it is without you the pain etc baby rest in peace