HI SWEETHEART I WENT TO THE KIDS REVIEW MEETING AND BOY WAS I MAD I DONT KNOW WHERE I AM AT THE MIN I AM JUST TAKING SO MUCH SHIT AT THE MIN WITH THE HSE AND THE WAY THEY ARE TREATING ME I AM REALLY WORRIED ABOUT GERARD JR NOT THAT I AM NOT WORRYED ABOUT JADE I LOVE OUR KIDS THERE ALL I HAVE LEFT OF YOU YOU WHERE MY ROCK YES WE HAD OUR PROBLEMS BUT I LOVED YOU IN MY OWN WAY BERNIE EVERYTHING IS JUST IN MY MIND AND THE MEETING DID NOT HELP ME THE THINGS I HAD ON MY MIND FOR A WHILE I LET IT GO IN ANGER AND IT DID NOT HELP ME I EVEN FREAKED AT MARY AND GOD KNOWS SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR US AND THE KIDS I FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT IT BERNIE MY KIDS ARE MY LIFE LIKE THEY WHERE YOUR LIFE AND ME AND THE KIDS MISS YOU ALOT JUST LOOKING AT THEM GROW WILL BE A JOY YOU HAVE MADE ME VERY HAPPY AND I WOULD NOT CHANGE GERARD JR OR JADE FOR THE WORLD I AM VERY PROUD OF THEM AND YOU TOO BABY LOVE UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN YOUR HUSBAND GERARD YOUR SON GERARD JR AND YOUR DAUGHTER JADE WALL RIP WE LOVE YOU FOREVER UNTIL THE DAY WE DIE XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX