bernie sweetheart its 19 days to christmas and it hard not having you around as it your first christmas not here i have canceled christmas god knows i miss you and so do the kids i remember what you said to me before you died but its not the same as having you here honey our kids miss you gerard jr more so then jade i promise to tell them everything you done for them and me they will always remember you like me you where the best thing that happened to me i wish you where here you birthday is another month and than your first ann baby its breaking my heart that you are up there and i am here i love you alot always have always will my marriage to you was the best even though we had our ups and down i never would of got a divorce because of my love for you never until we meet again look after your kids and me down here love your husband gerard your son gerard jr and your daughter jade wall for ever until we meet again rest in peace my angel